Gasping For A Whiff Of Reality

It is the reality, stupid.

Entering the realm of questioning reality is like trying to dig for gold in your backyard. Dig and dig, we find crumbs. CRUMBS. Nothing more, nothing less. Unfortunately, all we need are crumbs to make us addicted to our primary objects, gold.

So, what if we try digging for reality? Do we dig and dig and just find mere crumbs? Yes. Reality if thought about thoroughly enough, is indefatigable. In the end, are we actually searching for the right thing? But surely, the 'right' thing does not really exist.

And so we move on the existence. Related to philosophy now, you say? Yes, and there lies the problem. No, philosophy is not the problem. Neither is it the mind. More like the thinking is somewhat problematic. Are human beings really born to think? Yes. Are we meant to think about something meaningful? No. I think.

Again, does it matter? Before we can even figure out whether what we are thinking so hardly matters to us or our environment, we might soon face nothingness. We hit a block in our minds that cannot be defined, we just can tell whether we are doing things 'right'.

So, simply put, we change our plans. Try to tweak a thing or two here and there, in our minds of course. Then again, is this reality?

The Two (Cyclic) Sides

Where is the third? It is too vague to discern whether there is one.

Incessant barking is not the worst option.

Rejoice though, for there are at least two sides two things. Yes, yes, it is slightly problematic to think the world is 'good' and 'evil' or someone is 'bad' or 'good'. But take note that they are AT LEAST two.

This however is subjective and only slightly objective at best. Can actually prove something is only based on two characteristics? Maybe, if that thing is made of two main characteristics. That means other characteristics branch out from the two main ones.

Again, there is a problem of existence: how do we know? Being subjective, our opinions of the two sides can be biased. And it does depend on what kinds of bias we have to actually prevent that bias from affecting our judgment. Then, another problem would be what our two (or more) sides actually are like, i.e. what roles they should play.

At some point, there should be awareness that this may just be a mind trick. An illusion. A gimmick. Logical fallacies seem to have been thrown out of the window. Objectivity may have left us.

Until then though, at least it was a good ride. Now all you would have to do is go for another cycle...

Redemption Time? Sounds Witty To Me.

How is it possible that the 'now is the moment' can become so inappropriate at a particular moment of time?


Dual reality, paradox, logical fallacy. Let them breed in your mind and watch closely. Is it remorse? It is anguish? Angst? Before we can even fully ascertain ourselves with what we are supposed to be feeling, then it comes. The thought that nothing really matters.

All that we have been looking forward to is a waste, if we can find out how to utilize it. Instead of pure interest, we have pure denial instincts. Unfortunately, unless we 'get in there' and tell our minds that nothing matters, we would continue living in a state that cannot tell the difference between illusions and non-illusions.

Then we resort to the other option : recoil. We start to doubt ourselves... no wait, we are way past that by now. We are already in early stages of wanting to 'strike' back at our doubts and anguish, so we choose the redemption. "No one messes with ma' mind." becomes the superego.

Thankfully, it is not that dramatic. There is not much connection to reality. Because it is fairly meta-psychological business, the physical world is not very much affected.We still walk by, eat, sleep and all that. But we just cannot shake off the nervy feeling.


So, how is mind redemption resolved? Never, because we love it.