How is it possible that the 'now is the moment' can become so inappropriate at a particular moment of time?
Dual reality, paradox, logical fallacy. Let them breed in your mind and watch closely. Is it remorse? It is anguish? Angst? Before we can even fully ascertain ourselves with what we are supposed to be feeling, then it comes. The thought that nothing really matters.
All that we have been looking forward to is a waste, if we can find out how to utilize it. Instead of pure interest, we have pure denial instincts. Unfortunately, unless we 'get in there' and tell our minds that nothing matters, we would continue living in a state that cannot tell the difference between illusions and non-illusions.
Then we resort to the other option : recoil. We start to doubt ourselves... no wait, we are way past that by now. We are already in early stages of wanting to 'strike' back at our doubts and anguish, so we choose the redemption. "No one messes with ma' mind." becomes the superego.
Thankfully, it is not that dramatic. There is not much connection to reality. Because it is fairly meta-psychological business, the physical world is not very much affected.We still walk by, eat, sleep and all that. But we just cannot shake off the nervy feeling.
So, how is mind redemption resolved? Never, because we love it.